January 3, 2008

• Late 20s.  Quite pretty without being overtly sexy.  Working as a team lead/manager for this one company.  Finishing her MBA also.  Plays music at her church.  But not naive about going out.  Speaks both Korean and English fluently.  Both fobby AND twinkie. 

  But, like with everybody, there are issues, or at least past pain...only she won't talk about it.  As she sagely said last night after I asked her if she had a painful memory, "At our age, how can one have lived life WITHOUT some painful memory?"

  But she is cool.

  I don't know what to think right now.  After all, in 2007, I nearly got married to another girl (no joke) but never knew if it was the right thing and hence had cold feet and hence.....we didn't get married.

  "Do you regret not having gone through it with her?" the new girl last night asked me.  "And are you okay with it now?"

  I paused for a minute.  "I don't know.  And I don't think I ever will know for sure even if I am happily married to someone else."   More pause.  "There are right and wrong decisions....and then there are some decisions that are neither right nor wrong.....they're just decisions and it's up to YOU to make the best of them.  And even then, you don't know how you'll feel in a few years after making the decision and resolving to make the best of it....because the future is so unpredictable." <Cue the music, "Let Me Sing You a Waltz" by Julie Delpy>

  "Hmm."

  And we were silent, both still feeling each other out but both intrigued as well, not knowing what the future had in store.

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